So, i have a pretty messed up view on life... but I'm pretty sure its accurate, what do you think?

I do not know how, of late, recently I get confused a lot. I feel now as if I am intoxicated even though I have not taken any hard drink, nor do I smoke, I also never take any bad kind of drug. I do not know how I have become so weak and poor to ess. I am only able to read. But I am not able to grasp anything because of this confusion.